Cancer sucks...

yeah, that's right, Cancer is like the cockroach. It has no discernable value at all. All it does is cause pain and death. I cannot think of one thing that Cancer does that benefits the human race.

Bonnie just found out that her last living grandparent has cancer. Actually, Ms. Vaughn has fought with it before. She lost her lung and has been cancer free for quite a while. Of course, living with only one lung cannot be a walk in the park. Since then, walking to the mailbox would leave her out of breath.

Ms. Vaughn's relapse with Cancer could not have picked a worse place....her other lung. According to her doctor's, the tumor is too big to remove surgically, so our hopes for survival is based on a radiation treatment....and that is pretty much it.

I want to tell this story because I want all of you that read this to do whatever is necessary to avoid Cancer. So, for us guys that means colonoscopies (sp) and further prostate exams. For women, please get your check up. I know I sound like a goober saying this, but I am sick of watching those I care of get eaten up by this shitty disease.

This marks my third rodeo with Cancer at this level. I lost my Grandfather, who was my hero, in 1998, and my former mother in law Pat, shortly before Emma was born in 2000. Both times, the Cancer was unmerciful and I know brought agony to both. You learn a lot about your own mortality when you have to watch the day to day deteriation of someone you love.

Most of you that read this probably have a simliar story to tell. I am not special and do not need sympathy, but my dear Bonnie does. If Ms. Vaughn is to pass, Bonnie will no longer have any grandparents alive. I have my Nana, and I'm lucky for that.

I understand that God has a plan for each of us, but I cannot help but feel angry and confused as to why his plan includes such severe pain and the loss of one's dignity. I will be sure to ask him whenever I see him.

Take care of yourselves.

Clay