Im getting older now and have not really grasped what to do about it. The few things I can control is how I treat myself and others, but there is no turning back the clock. I'm 34. Im so out of shape, it's hard to keep from huffing a puffing from walking around UTC's campus sometimes. So the first thing Im going to do is lose some weight and eat better. What good is a college degree...then a law degree, if right after the bar exam I croak.
I am envious of many people unlike me that have built there lives around helping others and sacrificing for the common good. I know several people, some that are friends, that do this and I can tell that they are happy and have a clear conscience. Me, well.....I've pretty much done the exact opposite of what would be percieved as right over the years. Pride, ego, and never being wrong have cost me a bunch, but I realized that I have a saving grace. An ace in the hole if you will.
My legacy will be my daughter. Emma Chavis is going to be one of those people that gives instead of taking. She shares with others. She has a kind heart that cannot be measured. I believe that genetically she will have all the intellect she will ever need to be successful. I believe from observing that she has athletic skill that easily surpassed what I was able to do at 8, and I was a pretty darn good athlete back in the day.
Emma is going to be beautiful as well. She has the blue eyes of an angel and someday she is going to be model like tall....maybe 6 feet even. That beauty will be something that she will never outwardly show because I see in her that she will be humble.
Emma reminds me of my sister a little bit at 8. She is never in trouble, gets good grades and is obedient to adults. She understands where that line is, and never goes past it. Stephanie was the same way. I did not have to walk up behind Steph as a little girl because she always did the right thing. Emma is very much the same way.
My ex-wife Debbie and Bonnie deserve a lot of credit for keeping Emma rolling down a straight line. There is no question that Emma is loved and cared for by so many. Relatives and friends from places like Hawaii, Tennessee, Georgia, and South Carolina love her dearly.
So, sometimes when I get to thinking about the past...or stupid crap I wish I could take back, I stop and pause and remember that I have a little angel that thinks I'm super cool and will always make me look good, and that takes a lot. Emma has greatness before her and all I need to do is stay out of the way, spoil her rotten, and love her with everything I got.
My legacy will be my daugther and how she handles adolescence and then adulthood. I feel like I am going to be a very proud father, and that is a feeling that is just incredible.
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You are already a great father. It shows in Emma. She loves her Dad. I am so proud of everything you have become. You are a boy and they just do stupid stuff when they are young. Just ask my boys.WHEWWWWWWW...... Now that is another story.You have a lot to be proud of.You have come a long way and are making the right choices.I love you.
I second Roxanne... anyone can mess up, do stupid things, or hurt people they love... but not everyone can come to terms with it and change things around for the better. It takes a lot to recognize your weaknesses and work to do something about it. I am printing out this blog and putting it away for one day way in the future when it will mean something to Emma... because it already means a lot to me! I think Emma is a saving grave for a lot of people. She brings a smile to many a face... especially Nana :) and I know there are people not here anymore who are watching over her. She will definitely grow up to do great things.
And she gets free tours of the station! Her daddy knows the weatherman and THAT is super cool!
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