Happy New Year's

2010....who would have thunk it? I'd be sitting here typing this mess. I am at, what I would consider the greatest crossroad of my life. Here, now, it's more important than any other time in my life. Why?

I'm 35 years old. I think if I get lucky, I might be halfway complete with my life. Yeah, I seriously doubt I'll be so spry at 70. Since I'm a little past halfway through life, n0w would be a good time for some self-assessment.

Let's do this a simple way. Pros vs. Cons.

Pro.....I am the luckiest son of a bitch in the world to have a beautiful girl, who is kind, gentle, and my daughter.

Con......I live 420 miles away from her. Is there not a greater irony of my life in which I live so far away from what gives me strength? Something must change.

Pro- As luck would shine down on me again, I have fallen for someone. Yep, little different this time though. I'm comfortable in my own skin with her. I'm never comfortable, even if I'm asleep.

Con- It makes me nervous. (Only me)

Pro I have found God. It's not time for me to lay it down, but for the first time, I not looking straight down when I walk. There is a sense of purpose.


Con- I'm terrified.

I like that old saying. "Wherever you go, there you are," it seems right. For all the mediocrity and worse that I have put up with, there is still time. Lots of it, really. My decisions during this time will not only affect me, but those that I care for. The last time I felt like this was....well....it was another time. Anyway.......


clayyyy


I hope everyone enjoyed themselves over the holidays. Emma was here for a week and we set a new land speed recored in order to get everything done. God Bless.